Where Was My MIND?

I had a fairly busy day today. Nothing on my calender was all to challenging and each part was something that I was looking forward to. I had to get up and get my girls to school with food in their bellies, get some exercise, teach a strength and conditioning class in Kalispell, train a FRIEND/client back in Whitefish, then schools again, dance, baby hand off and a Kundalini workshop. Like I said, nothing out of the ordinary, just not much room to deviate from my schedule.

As I was getting ready for my day last night I started to get tense, and...I already had my lunch made, Lillian's lunch made and everything packed to leave the house at 8am and get home 12 hours later. I woke up tense, and rushed. When I was going for my run, I spent the entire time looking at my watch calculating how much time I had to get to my next scheduled slot. By the time I finished all that was on my list for the morning and was driving to teach my class I had been stressed about this one day for over 12 hours. All of a sudden, I noticed that the sun was out. About the same time I noticed that my shoulders were knotted up at my ears, my lower back was sore and there was so much pressure in my chest, I was unable to take a deep breath. How ironic.

I got to thinking about where my mind had been for the last 12 hours. I wasn't enjoying any moments. I wasn't grateful for the wonderful day that was before me. I was so worried about the logistics that I totally missed half of great things that I got to experience. I rushed my kids out the door and into school with a kiss. That was the last time I saw either of them for the rest of the day. I was so worked up over my run, I wasn't able to get my heart rate to drop below 100 beats per minute during my cool down, I finally just gave up. So in 12 hours of stress over a day that I was TOTALLY prepared for, I missed countless amazing moments. And in addition to that, I certainly did not practice what I was preaching, my words did not match my actions, there was no congruency!

My goal for tomorrow? To notice and enjoy the moments. My daughter Sage is turning 2, there should be some great ones!